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Please read my journal (when I'm dead)

Maybe this is weird, but I really want someone to read my journal. When I'm dead of course. If I caught anyone reading it now I'd have a hard time fully trusting them again.

Anyway, I just think it would be cool for someone to read all my dumb entries when I'm dead and gone. I don't care who reads it, I don't care what happens to it, I just want someone to read it. I assume it will probably be family that ends up reading this someday. Maybe it will be my sister's future children? Maybe it will be my parents? (if I happen to die before them.) Maybe it will be cousins? Friends? It might even be complete strangers! Who knows..

I'm not sure why the thought of it is so appealing to me when the thought of someone reading it without my consent is horrifying to me now. Of course, it is hard to care about something when you're dead. I guess if someone is reading my journal it means they cared about me. Or maybe they're curious about me. Or maybe they're just bored. Either way, I hope I will be able to provide some sort of entertainment with my journal.

Although this leads me to wonder, how will my journal be found? I do have some notebooks with writing in them, but now my journal is digital. I'm trying to type up some old entries I still have access to so they are preserved there in case I lose the original notebooks. It might remain hidden until someone decides to look through my computer. Maybe I should write instructions on recovering my journal in my will? Let's be real though, I'm probably not going to write up a will anytime soon.

Also, fun fact: this particular piece of writing is actually in my journal, although I have made some alterations to it to post here. I can be completely honest without consequence in my journal, which is why this piece is different there. If you can't be completely honest in your journal can you ever truly be honest?


My name is Serena, and I'm a 27 year old from the great state of Oklahoma. I have a variety of interests, including video games, anime, reading, taking pictures of my cat, writing, studying Japanese, and browsing the internet. I'm the sort of person that has an opinion on damn near everything, to the point where it probably annoys the hell out of the people close to me, which is part of why I decided to start this website.


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